Every single night before I go to bed, I look at the picture on facebook which I labeled meiner liebe. As of writing, I know that my dream is the only place I'll able to see him again. Hm.. I don't think it is a crime to still dream dreams. Even better, as my friends on facebook often say and I quote, libre ang mangarap ( it is free to dream), so I just keep on dreaming. Besides, being still fully human, it makes me feel good to have found him. I feel like I am alive!
Even if he is not French-speaking and I am not probably going back to France even if I've seen in my book called France that I've just seen a tiny southern part of the country, he has been like my inspiration in learning French.
It amused me that as the following expressions came one after another in my French lessons one morning, and I repeat after the tutor each phrase, I said to myself "Ah, this is him."
Il a une belle voix ; Il est beau; Il est drole; Il est gentil;Il est grand;Il est mignon; Il est patient; Il est serieux; Il est sophistique;
Needless to say the above phrases came back easily to my mind. So instead of doing what my father taught me since I was a kid this time of counting sheeps one by one to fall asleep, I am uttering these expressions one after another: Il a une belle voix (He has a beautiful voice); Il est beau (He is handsome);Il est drole (He is humorous;); Il est gentil (He is kind); Il est grand (He is tall); Il le mignon (He is good-looking); Il les patient (He is patient); Il est serieux (He is serious); and Il est sophistique (He is sophisticated).
Well, I am not exactly thinking I am doing or saying a magic spell for him to appear in my dream, so needless to say except on two occasions in a span of eight months, he never visited me in my dream.
The funny thing was my philanderer ex-significant other has been visiting in my dreams. Weird! and every time, I wake up, I always tell God "I don't like to see him even in my dream!" I wish there was a legislation where I could apply for a "Apprehended Dream Order", so I do not have to see him in my dream.
Last night I dreamed again...instead of seeing him who is Il a une belle voix ; Il est beau; Il est drole; Il est gentil;Il est grand;Il est mignon; Il est patient; Il est serieux; Il est sophistique; I dreamed instead of a young man who is Il est maigre (He's skinny) and Il est lent (He's slow). The horrible thing which woke me up was I agreed to have a date with him to eat pork.
